When Josh and I first started talking about a second baby my biggest hesitation was Sadie. It was hard to imagine that I could love another baby as much as I love her. I also felt guilty for changing her little comfortable world. I knew and still know she needs a sibling. Desperately. :) That fact doesn't make it any easier on a momma's heart.
Leading up to delivery Sadie was my biggest concern. How would she take it? How would it affect her? Would she love her sister? Would she know that mommy and daddy still love her bunches? The night before we went in for the induction I rocked her and cried like a baby. I wanted more than anything for her to be ok and to adjust well.
After Sophie arrived I couldn't wait for Sadie to meet her. I admit I was so nervous. I wasn't sure how she'd handle the hospital setting, what she'd think of her sister, and if she'd be upset when she had to leave.
My parents brought Sadie to see us the day after Sophie was born.
Immediately she ran up to me and let me hold her. When I directed her towards Sophie her little face lit up and I knew she loved her.
She loved her sister and loved opening her goodie bag.
Sadie's visit to the hospital was better than I could have imagined! She handled everything so well and I was so proud. I missed my big girl while I was gone.
Since we've been home it's been a little crazy though. My sweet Sadie Lady has had a tough time adjusting. I've heard it's normal and she'll eventually settle but it has been hard to watch. Her little world has been rocked and I did this to her. I know it's a good thing, or a great thing, but I hate to see her like this. She has good days and bad days but I constantly tell her how much I love her and do my best to put her needs first. It's a challenge but I know it's just a season. Soon she will settle into our new normal and she will love it!
Josh and I are so thankful for both our baby girls. We are blessed and we don't deserve them.